Perfect - MIGGS

Everything I know is wrong
Every thought I have is gone
And every line I've crossed has led me here
If I could take it all away
Wash my sins and pain today
I wouldn't change a thing if you weren't here
aren't here

I want you to know
I'll bleed if you go
I thought you should know oh oh oh...
Know oh oh oh...
You're perfect

Every word I write seems wrong
I know I've sang them all before
But every cliche seems too insincere
If I could stop the time I would
Before I mess with something good
I hope that your okay with me right here
Maybe you won't mind if I stay here

I want you to know
I'll bleed if you go
I thought you should know oh oh oh...
Know oh oh oh...
I want you to know
I'll bleed if you go
I thought you should know oh oh oh...
Know oh oh oh...

When all goes to hell
And crashes around me
I can't hold onto this bliss
When I'm hurting myself
As I have in mind to
I'm reminded of all this
You're perfect
You're perfect
You're perfect
You're perfect

Maybe you won't mind if I step out into your light for just awhile
You make me feel like I'm alright
I love to watch you sleep or smile
You understand the way I am
I'm scared I'm tense and I pretend that
It's alright yeah it's alright
I hope that you won't mind
Shining a little of your light
On me
Well shine just a little light
'Cause you're perfect
You're perfect
You're perfect...

- I really should keep my fone attached to my body at all times. I misplaced my cellphone 3 times this week, managing to leave it in the MRT restroom, a colleague's car, and in a coffee shop. Amazing enough, it was always returned to me. That pretty much restored my faith in humanity.

- I hate all those Tagalized versions of foreign hit songs. Ms. Ganda is really raking it in with her versions of Bleeding Love, With you, and whoever sang that often-played Tagalog Insomnia. C'mon people... you seem to be a very creative lot, why not just write your own songs.

- It's not a good idea to run several applications at the same time even though your RAM is 2 gb. Like doing a full script [dialogues and karaoke] using the HD raw video with your notepad open for your QC notes, another script open for comparison of dialogues from the previous episode, and then suddenly deciding to watch an episode of Long Vacation while having a QC break. After several days of doing it, my laptop decided it was too much and decided to take a much needed rest. The screen just froze, so my kneejerk reaction was to restart it. Windows won't load afterwards, no matter if I try rebooting it using the safe mode or the last known good configuration settings. My first thought was, "Oh no! yenchan69will kill me, fersure." My Koishite Akuma QC was already due and I was already in the last 10 minutes of the video when this happened. I was on a forced subbing hiatus for 4 days... man, it was hell. Talk about a subbing detox. I got the laptop back yesterday. According to the technician, it has around 400 mb of bad sectors. I didn't know what that meant, but I was told not to strain the laptop too much. Oh well... I still think it was that jinxed KA04 script that did it, hahaha.

- Preparing meals for your family, even with fully stocked fridgeand pantry, is hard. My mum went on a spur-of-the-moment Hongkong trip with her friends for 4 days, leaving me in-charge of cooking while she's gone. It would've been easier if she gave me a meal plan, like cook this for dinner and this for breakfast. But all she told me was, "Bahala ka na dyan." [It's all up to you] Oh God!!! It was hell, trying to figure out what to do with all those stuff in the fridge. And the actual cooking... I had to go home straight from work just so I could cook dinner for all of us. And then prepare the stuff for breakfast before I go to sleep. And then do it all over again the next day. I now have a new appreciation for mothers out there. [A corollary of this would be, I learned that it is actually possible for me to come home straight from work, instead of hanging out somewhere first. And doing that saved me a lot of money.]

- I love smap... or rather, I love Kimura Takuya [oh wait... I think I realized that a few weeks back already] I saw their latest cm for Softbank and I must've watched it 5 times in a row before even looking at the other smap members, hahaha.

- Teriyaki Boy's Philly Cheese Steak Roll will make you forget all your problems, at least while eating it.


Here's one of the songs on constant repeat in my player. It's one of my favorite songs from Long Vacation.

Under the Moonlight - Cagnet

As most of you may have noticed, I tend to ramble and digress too much when I have a lot to talk about. This entry is another proof of such bad habits...

-------------------------

(1) Mum's birthday thingy/household prayer meeting

Mum turns 58 today [uh-oh... I just had to write down her age] and she decided to celebrate her birthday lots of times. The first of her series of birthday parties was held yesterday at our house in San Mateo. She scheduled her household prayer meeting to coincide with her birthday so she'll just treat her Handmaids of the Lord friends just once. Originally, she wanted to have it today but she had to move it to Friday coz she needs me to cook for her and there's no way you can make me absent from my Saturday clinics [and lose quite a big amount of PF].

So I played hooky from my other clinic [yeah, the perks of being the Clinic Manager] to help out with her lunch party. My mum has quite a temper, especially when we're having visitors over at the house [scrub the grills, scrub the bathroom, scrub the garage, re-arrange stuff...you'd think she's selling the house] that I wasn't really looking forward to being her only helper that day, with my sisters at school and at work. Good thing though that everything went pretty well that day, none of the usual drama brought about by having gatherings at home. I was even able to convince mum to have some wine [yeah, ms.i-don't-get-get-drunk came from mrs.i-don't-have-any-vice-yeah-not-a-single-one].

Check out some of the stuff I prepared...

( food... )

(2) I was pretty tired at the end of the day coz of all the cooking and serving so I treated myself to some pick-me-ups...

( yo's guilty pleasures... )
(3) Decided that this will be a picture post [my apologies to those with bad internet connection] and so I took some random photos around the house.

( more randomness... )

(4) I'm currently watching the reruns of this reality show on etc.

I saw the ex-boyfriend today. He visited me at the clinic this afternoon. As usual, the interns and the patients, even the brothers staying at the shelter home, had a grand time teasing us...or rather, me, since they're all afraid of him. He used to work in the same clinic as my staff PT even after we broke up. It was only last month when he decided to take an indefinite leave so he could sort out his incompletes with our Master's program.

Uh yeah, we used to work together. And study together.

Yeah, after the break-up.

Weird? I don't think so. Lemme backtrack a bit.

David was my boyfriend for 5 years before we called it quits around 2 year ago. Establishing your territories was hell at first...your affairs tend to get pretty entangled after 5 years of being together. So yeah, for the first weeks after that fated day, we were walking around like zombies, trying to project normalcy while going through our own private hells.

But during "the talk," we decided that we'll try our best to be friends after this. So that was what we did. A lot of our friends thought we were a couple of idiots because of that. I didn't understand at first what they were saying, shouldn't they be happy that at least I'm not on a self-destructing mode coz hey! 5 years on my life just went down the drain. After several weeks of going through the notions of being just "friends," I finally realized what my friends meant. Putting on a brave face when I see him at work and at school all the time was just too taxing, so we decided to make a clean break. No phone calls, no texts, we both filed for a sem-long leave of absence from our Master's, and I changed my clinic day so I won't have to see him. Tough, yeah, especially when I encounter various problems with my car and my knee-jerk reaction would be to call him for help. But you learn to cope, you learn to depend on yourself or on other people. You avoid your usual haunts, preferring to find new places to hang out so you could make new memories instead of dwelling on previous ones. Slowly, you become okay, so okay that you could finally face him with a smiling face and not feel like you were compelled to smile just so you look ok.

I think it took me several months before I was finally cool with seeing him again. Gradually, running into him at the mall, or having staff meetings [yeah, i stopped having them all the time I was "healing", lol] became less of a burden. Now, we text each other during holidays. His mom still calls me every so often, asking about how I am. I sometime text him for help, especially when it's about my car. He even got a free puppy when my labrador, Annie, had 7 puppies. We're not back to being best buddies, but we're friends again. It's just ironic though that he had to take a leave from the clinic when we're finally ok.

So yeah, we're friends, and we're cool.

I'm going through my music files in hopes of making sense out of all of my music files. I need to free up some space in my pc so it won't crash from all my subbing projects. Well, after days of staring at folders upon folders of random songs, I realized that the best thing for me now would be to copy them in a cd and listen to them later. Bad, I know. But something good came out of it still. Finally, I was able to listen to some of the albums I downloaded eons ago. Some of them blew my synapses away...I kept thinking, "Why didn't I listen to these stuff earlier?" There were also, "What was I thinking then?" moments. Well, you win some, you lose some.

Here are some of the songs I liked. I'll be upping the complete albums in cd_junkies [so jun_x_kohta won't kick me out of the comm for being such a lousy mod, lol] For now, enjoy them through imeem streaming. Credits to all those who upped them to imeem.

</div>

( 2. Life by Siam Shade )

</div></div></div>

( 3. Ping Xing Xian by JS )

</div></div></div>

( 4. Trip by Abe Fuyumi )

</div></div></div>

( 5. When I think of You by Hopscotch )

</div></div></div>

( 6. Salad Day by Yoon Eun Hye (feat. Lee Dong Gun) )

</div></div></div>

( 7. Step by Step by Battle )

</div></div></div>

( 8. Truth by Arashi )

</div></div></div>

( 9. Pasubali by Spongecola )

</div></div></div>

( 10. Time Goes By by Vamps )

</div></div></div>
I guess now you understand how random my music files are. I still have a lot of work to do if I want to make sense <and actually listen> to all of them.

Of course I can't end this list without a song from one of my favorite JE groups <yes friends, I love them and you can hate me for it but yeah, I love them still> KAT-TUN. They released a lot of songs last year so it was quite hard to choose among them. I picked this though coz I loved how it sounds so...KAT-TUNny <lol> You have pop, rock, techno, rap all in one song, giving it as much character as the wardrobe of this group. I really should end this now before I commit more non sequiturs. I'll be more coherent next time, after I get some sleep :)

( HELL, NO by KAT-TUN )</div></div></div>